ang sipag
Ang sipag-sipag ko magupdate ng blog…
Once again, assorted thoughts are swarming inside my head. Quarterlife crisis ongoing… yan lang ang masasabi ko.
Days before I officially turned 25 last year, I was acting weird and all. Suddenly I have to face my fears (face lng not necessarily conquer it once and for all). I may be a picture of a steady and strong person armed with a lot of optimism and positive thoughts but the truth is I am one big chicken (little?) s____. Most of the time, nauunahan ako ng takot kaya i ditch my initial plans… and choose to delay it. Hanggang I end up blaming myself.
At the start of the year, I declared to embrace all my fears. Kung tatalon, o sya, sige tatalon ako. Nevertheless, the declaration was not enough to kill my fears. Slowly though, I would like to think I am coming to terms with it and making progress in conquering those fears.
Dati sabi ko iibahin ko tong blog ko, hindi ito tulad ng iba kong ginawa… dapat tungkol lng sa mga trivial stuffs na di senti, hindi depressing, hindi makapagdamdamin…. hindi madrama. Kaya lang di ko mapigilan magsulat ng kung anuman ung talagang iniisip ko. arggh… Di bale, hanggang dyan lang sasabihin ko… walang masyadong madrama. Madrama na buhay natin wag ko nang dagdagan ng pathetic kadramahan ko. hehehe…
So nway anong point ng entry na to… Ang point, ang dami ko namang iniisip… once for all sana mag-alsa-balutan na tong mga “fears” at iwan na ako.
At sympre tatapusin ko to ng may kanta… (kakantahan ko ang fears para marindi sila sa akin at kusang aalis, haha, i wish)
She Says ni Howie Day
And that’s why I’m wondering
Why you had to tell me
What’s going on in your head
What’s wrong
Come around to another time
When you don’t have to run
