backwards

what makes me happy… these 4 new books i have…

1) Louisa May Alcott’s A Long Love Chase (this one is not as popular as her Little Women… it’s about obssession, according to the synopsis… Hmm Lately, most of the books Ive bought belong to the classic literature genre)
2) Joy Fielding’s Missing Pieces (read two of her works, one of which is See Jane Run… and I enjoyed reading it so I might as well read her again)
3) David Baldacci’s Saving Faith (got interested after seeing my former co-worker reading one of his novels… This is my first time reading his work, so let’s see if I’ll get to like him too)
4) Reader’s Digest Select Edition which includes Nicholas Evans’ The Smoke Jumper (I liked his "The Horse Whisperer" so why not read him again…)

Still have to finish reading Rebecca Wells’ novel and Frank Kafka’s The Metamorphosis and other short stories… I lent one of my students George Orwell’s Animal Farm, which I have started reading. It is a fun read… I actually enjoyed reading farm animals rebelling against humans. Hehe… Their leader was a pig named Snowball.

am i just getting old or are values and etiquette just fading away as the world changes and time moves forward?

I’ve just noticed… most people nowadays are super insensitive and lack etiquette, finesse, manners, common sense, and consideration. Makes me think wala nang matinong tao sa mundo… or konti na lng talaga ang natitira na may common sense, may etiquette… kasama na atang namatay with chivalry ang mga kagandahang asal at social graces. Wala na talaga…

Tulad ngaun, kung may common sense ba naman ‘tong isang ‘to, eh di umisplit na sana to… Pero pinagtagpo ata ng universe ang 2 walang common sense… so anong maeexpect ko? di ba? anong maeexpect mo…

Konti na lng ang dakila sa mundo (note: hindi mo kelangan magbuwis ng buhay para sa kapakanan ng iba para matawag na dakila)

Galit ba ako? Hindi, pissed off lang… sa mga taong katulad nang nabanggit ko. Hay, sana magising naman sila… Mag-aral kaya sila sa etiquette school. At sana matamaan ng kometa ang 2 ito nang magising… Ah basta… naiinis talaga ako…

I dont get it… what’s with this PC game that it leaves my brothers hot-tempered? It’s just a game.
It’s too early to be so hot-tempered and all but here is one of my bros who would impatiently tap on the keyboard trying to open one of their Ragnabots (whatever  they are). Yes, they have a lot of bots.
I dont like starting my day seeing them pissed over something that is not even really important.

I have missed three GA episodes now due to exhaustion. I always fell asleep while waiting for GA on S23. Ive noticed I am always tired… and to think I have a four-hour break at work.
Perhaps, it’s time to do something… I am probably feeling exhausted because I willed it.

Lastly, just finished reading Dan Brown’s Angels and Demons. I like this Brown novel than the "controversial" The Da Vinci Code. However, I dont like the fact that the main character always has to end up with one of the characters. I mean why need to inject a love angle in an interesting novel. Maybe he just wants this one to sell to hopeless romantics. Anyway, overall the flow from one scene to another is more natural than the DVC, which i find the shifting too halting or forced at times. Finally, I just dont get it… why some people think that reading these kinds of novels will shake your faith? IMO, it makes you find or even strengthen your faith…

Sometimes I feel too much… I empathize too much. This side of me could be both a strength and a weakness. I just pray things will be all right.

And appropriately… I am into emo music lately. Well, blame it on Dashboard Confessional’s new song - Don’t Wait.

The sky glows. I see it shining when my eyes close. I hear your warnings but we both know, I'm gonna look at it again. 

Don't wait, Don't wait, The road is now, A sudden sea, and suddenly, You're deep enough to lay your armor down, To lay your armor down, To lay your armor down. 

I remember it was my former co-worker, Myan, who introduced me to the world of Emo Rock.
A local band named Typecast almost sounds like DC. Especially their song "Scars of a Falling Heart."

I remember how can i forget
Unpredictable but no regrets
I’m drowning in this waters
Your hand is out there somewhere
- Forget, Typecast

Broken hopes falling away
Don’t you have something to say?
Does it make you sleep?
Emptiness of words that you’ve said
Scars in my heart that you left
Now i’m close to dying
- Scars of a Falling Heart

And back to The Used…

Should've said something But I've said it enough By the way my words were faded Rather waste some time with you-Blue and Yellow, The Used

Hargh, I am once again letting myself drown in emotional songs…

And lastly, naLSS ako sa Panic! At the Disco’s I Write Sins Not Tragedies.

PS: I am still bothered by this song with the following lyrics - Disillusioned, Disappointed. We brought the story to tell. We bought the lies to sell. Is this the best of it. - I dont know if i got the words right. I heard it yesterday over K-Lite but I failed to get the name of the band that sang the said LSS song. I remember hearing Hale singing it live at one of their Saguijo gigs… It reminded me of high school. I am not so sure if the said song was from the late 90s. If only someone would tell me what’s the title of the song… because I want to DL it.

Most often, I am on the brink of losing my patience that I am ready to just give up. However, there are incidences and circumstances wherein you would turn around and reignite your flame - patience and all.

Back when I am still attending CTP classes, our professors would reiterate that it’s good to learn about your students’  background… It’s better if you talk to them casually so that you’ll know them better. It’s good that I joined yesterday’s field trip because I got to know them all better. And knowing them better reignited the dying flame for taking this path.

It was pleasure and life-learning experience for me… Dun ko lng napatunayan ang gagaling ng mga estudyante ko… Sila lahat ng-isip ng paraan. I wouldnt have thought of that water-saving technique for the fill the pail activity. Basta marami akong natutunan sa trip na un.

One of the best lessons Ive learned from one of the activities - Just let go and don’t think of much fear kasi pag sige ka pa rin sa paghold on dahil takot ka tumalon, may masamang mangyayari. Yun ang nangyari sa akin nung ginawa ko ang ala-Tarzan activity - kumapit sa pole, muntik n ako tumama sa bakal. nakakahiya kasi ako pa ang napagsabihan ng mga bantays instead sa mga bata…

At ang galing lahat ng mga estudyante ko (except sa may restrictions), nagrapelling. Ang sarap pala magrapelling. Gusto kong ulit-ulitin.

Here’s another great song from The Fray… and from Grey’s Anatomy

Step one you say we need to talkHe walks you say sit down it’s just a talkHe smiles politely back at youYou stare politely right on throughSome sort of window to your rightAs he goes left and you stay rightBetween the lines of fear and blameAnd you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friendSomewhere along in the bitternessAnd I would have stayed up with you all nightHad I known how to save a life

Another reason why you should watch GA… it has a great OST. Though I missed last Thursday’s ep, harghh… would have to dig through youtube.com to watch that one.

So it has been a gruelling week for me. I have had my shortcomings and all. Have to make up for all of those shortcomings. Still havent watched any movies… missed the supposedly get-together with ate riza, et al. But was able to see rosary for an hour or two… That’s my week so far… On friday, it’s card distribution day. Have to brace myself for talks with my studes’ ‘rents. Saturday, I have to go with my studes for a day trip at an eco-park in Rizal - that’s a welcome change. And if my guess is right, I am up for another evaluation tomorrow… this time with the assistant principal. Hay… Hope i wont get too rattled… I’ll just imagine that I am not being evaluated and observed.

what else? The only amusing thing in my life right now is …. my nephew. I always watch TV with him around and commercial breaks have a new twist with him around. Imagine a two-year-old kid mimicking the dialogues… the tune of the background music… etc. That’s the only thing that makes me smile nowadays.

how do you earn respect?
There’s so much to fix… I am looking for answers.

kamukha ko daw

kakatuwa naman tong myheritage.com… naaliw ako sa kakafind out kung sino kamukha ko na celebrities, click nyo ung phrase na kamukha ko daw… Mostly, Korean and Japanese singers and actresses ang nag-aappear. One of whom is Gokusen’s and Ring O’s Yukie Nakama. Pero ang lagi lumalabas si Kim Hee-sun at Namie Amuro. Wala lng, aliw lang ako. Pwde nyo try iba’t ibang pictures nyo…

thanks to Drei… and another blogger, missyosigirl.

I havent had any time to write… As usual work is eating up my time, with papers to check and all. In addition to that, when I get home, I have to look after my nephew. (geselle puli ka man aga, makapoy bantay bata mo…) Nakakapagod magbantay kay Joaqui. eventhough, maaamuse ka sa mga antics nya (this include mimicking the advertisements), nakakainis din sya kung minsan… kasi di nakikinig… laging umiiyak (arggh, ang ingay!)… pag pinapagalitan mo, magagalit din sayo at magtatampo pa sayo (mana sa nanay, di ako nagtataka). As ive said boring ang life ko… bahay-eskwela… bata pa lagi kaharap ko. Aaminin ko, namimiss ko mga kaopisina ko dati at sina Rosary at Jen. Ngayon di ako pwedeng basta-basta magkwento sa mga kung anuman ang iniisip ko… Kasi ang lagi naman pinagkukwentuhan ng mga co-new teachers ko, tungkol sa lovelife (wala ako nun…) at sa klase namin. Mainit pa ngaun… ay la palang koneksyon un sa sinusulat ko.

palabas na kaya ang "The Devil Wears Prada"? Gusto ko manood ng sine…

Tulog na nga ako at magsisimba na talaga ako…