backwards

As I was walking home tonight, I saw this red ring around the full, bright moon. It reminded me of the movie "Practical Magic." This movie is also about protecting one’s self from the pain brought about love… it is also about fate.

Fate… Most of the time, I am still wondering what really is my fate. I know it’s such an overrated thought… and I have been thinking, wondering of such thing for quite some time now and shouldn’t it be that I should have it all figured out already. But here I am still stuck in the same desert, still left without any concrete answers. Just this morning, I caught a little of the movie "Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy." In that movie, there was a supercomputer built to supposedly answer the ultimate question… what is life and everything… However, after millions of years waiting for the answer to the said question (which was actually said in a declarative sentence), the supercomputer could only say that the answer to life and everything is the number 42, reasoning that the question was technically not a question as it is in declarative form. The supercomputer then advised the people to build another equipment that would provide the question… for the answer they are looking for. I know that sounds quite complicated. So thats about it that I have caught as I need to leave the house for the badminton game with etchos, ng rhea, and jolan.

What is life indeed? We say we dream of living a simple life… but I know we couldnt live in simplicity. I think we can never find contentment in simple life. Sigh… I could be wrong with this kind of thinking. There’s so much to think about and wonder again.

Maybe my reasons sounded not right… but I am just being honest. I am in a point in my life where I feel that there’s this some void in my life… and if I don’t do anything, I will never be fulfilled. I will always be wondering what could be my life if I did this and that. And so… again, I have to take this bigger leap. I just feel lucky I have good friends by my side.